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Found out several days ago that Pickup Gourmet had been revived back in February, two years to the month since I abandoned it the second time around.


Reposted the Unwilling Service job under clearer terms yesterday, after failing with everyone except Zecobo so far to get what I actually want out of it. So far, six people have already applied.
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Two days ago, Mom and I went to the Sunshine Square, where she bought some soap at the dollar store while sending me inside Stop & Shop to buy some chocolate-covered salted caramels with a coupon I picked up the other day. The lady at customer service directed me to a total of four different locations when I asked her twice throughout, but I couldn't find anything. While I was at it, though, I happened to spot some bags of differently flavored chocolate chips, and picked up a vanilla one.

When I came out to meet Mom, who was waiting for me in the car (while I also sat down to eat some Mounds after checkout), she got mad at me for spending nearly $7 of a twenty she gave me, and told me I could be responsible for baking some cookies for myself once I run out of what I've got in my bedroom cabinet.

Yesterday just so happened to be National Chocolate Chip Cookie Day. I placed said thing of cookies on the table, and also took to baking a batch of vanilla-chip ones, only to find out that we were out of butter and vanilla extract. Walked all the way to Stop & Shop to get them (with the whole remainder of what Mom gave me previously), and by the time I got back (at 10:00), Dad, Brian, and Marie were already waiting for me so we could all go see Dunkirk.

On our way there, Marie suggested that we pay Mom a visit at the hospital, I agreed rather enthusiastically, but Dad talked us out, saying that employees are not supposed to have people randomly coming to visit them, also suspecting that I was more interested in grabbing something at the cafeteria (which I implicitly confirmed). (The three of us would have gone if Dad weren't there as well, but Marie happened to agree with his point.)

The time being that at which I normally eat lunch, once we found ourselves a spot, I went out not just to use the restroom, but also to buy myself a box of CookieDough Bites, a few each of which I shared with everyone. Indeed, it was already 1 when we left the theater, and Dad and I both agreed to have Brian in charge of reheating us all some leftover ribs while Dad light a fire (it was pretty rainy and cold yesterday) and I bake those damn cookies already. Mom came home while my cookies were still baking in the oven, and even suggested that I put them back in after noticing them not quite done, taking them out again while I tended to over fifty WaniKani reviews that had accumulated in all those hours.

At Brian's proposal from when we were coming home, I later went with him to Starbucks, although all either of us had left to talk about has been my situation with Jake this past week. Most of what he had to say was about how I could've handled things better, although he did later admit when I asked that he would have had similar advice for Jake if, hypothetically, he were to share his side of things with him.

As for orders, I had myself a tall Midnight Mint Mocha frappuccino, but barely managed to taste anything. Glad I didn't order a Smores one. Mentioned to Brian how much more flavor the same thing had at Tanger Outlets, and he explained to me how food in general tends to taste better when you're hungry than when you're full. I admitted how full I actually was from eating lunch so much later than usual, and even had just a salad for dinner later on.

And, Brian and Marie both went back last night. (Marie originally planned on staying around for a few days, but got kinda stressed out over her lack of employment from those few months ago.)


Zecobo managed to place a finger on word count last night, and asked that I pay him a lot more than just $12 for anywhere around 10,000. I told him I would get back to him once I make a bank deposit and register for a new system that the bank has recently implemented.

Heather had also made a similar request the other day after I cleared things up with her, and I asked her for a few days to see how well things pan out with the others. So far, things in general are already looking good with Zecobo and Kristen, especially with what he happened to name, and she is now back in reserve for the time being.

Given all that, I think the time might just be right to get back into Starbound already. I haven't been thinking so much about Madoka lately, and there are certain things I'd like to do at least with my Dropbox files. (Popotan is still gonna have to wait, though, since I've already spent some money that I would have otherwise spent in Boston previously. Brian even agreed that a brief visit next fall might be a better time than this past visit for him to read my 4th grade document that he still has yet to read, so that will be the main focus then.)
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Went with Brian to Bagel Lovers down the street yesterday. For the ride there, I suggested he check out Super Bomberman R as long as he intends to invest in a Switch, after having consumed music and footage of it on YouTube, and also described my Upwork situation and how that has improved to him.

During our actual time there, I asked him if he could place a finger on what it is about my wish to pay tribute to Konami's canon PSX library in some way with Day of the Beehive. He agreed that to buy so many games as it released in all three combined regions would be super-expensive, and suggested I just recommend them, providing information about each game and links to YouTube footage. (This is something I'd probably do, in release date order, on the day we release DotB online, although I'd be really hard-pressed to come up with anything for all its various sports games; seriously, how much different overall could Goal Storm be from ISS Pro Evolution? Soccer is soccer.)


Jake was never on Skype ever since I doubled down on him until just yesterday afternoon, upon having a partial sketch of Mai Tsurugino naked to show me for input. He is far from the first person I've ever commissioned whose skills don't even remotely amount to Yincira's or JessicaElwood's, and I gave the best input I could muster when he's not interested in anyone else's input and Yincira is still out to lunch and never will deal with anyone sporting such excessively large breasts as she's supposed to in the respective fanfic. From there, I've decided to let him revise and finish her before I decide whether to have him proceed with the Unwilling Service mains or do something else.

I also gave him permission to ask me for fanfic help again, but also requested a list of everything that bothered him about US that he supposedly never brought up with me (assuming until then that, by "75%", he meant of the fic throughout, most of which was only outlined so far, little in turn of which we ever even talked about). At first, he failed to understand how I failed to get anything he said, but until last night, he did leave some stuff a bit vague. After having previously started explaining his situation about Pokemon in general, he ran out of steam and just left it at the time at "half-measures", which he then only specified as "respecting eachother's wishes", which, as it now turns out, did in fact mean compromises. He explained just last night that, basically, he wanted freedom to do various things his way, but I wanted some level of control over what he does, and this went on to affect how subsequent scenes would play less to his liking than if I just let him do whatever. Along with how he wanted to picture Jamie, he also cited something Ellen originally did to her father (now her uncle) that I just rolled with at first but would later delete after he wrote up an expanded version of that. (Unless I misunderstood him last night, he thought I was talking about what she did, when I actually meant any sexual interactions with him, which I would equate with his aversion to Jasmine being sexualized in any way whatsoever. Not that I expect just that much to bring him back on board.)

(On a similar note, I am willing to allow Jake to reinstate the original metamorphoses, something I went out of my way to avoid originally, into the Yoshi's Island fic if he ever sees that through, given how inherent he specified they are as part of the original game.)

Well, Unwilling Service is and shall remain my project primarily, and to begin with, to have him expand upon it was his own idea back in 2011, based on his personal opinion of my writing style that I so happened to agree with for that particular story. So, yeah, I can kinda understand how much more fun he expected to have, to go wild with things, instead of having me tell him what he can and can't do, and I'm at fault for not making anything clear when we first agreed upon anything. Keep in mind that the closest I knew about to Upwork back then was to shop around on deviantArt and invite people on FanFiction through author's notes. I'd at least owe him points for trying to see things through anyway, even if I wouldn't have experienced such intense frustration trying to get anything out of Upwork if my attempts with Jake didn't drag out for so long as they did. Now that he's done writing anything to it, I do hope he still enjoys reading what goes up despite certain things he still disagrees with.


Last night, Mom actually managed to boot up my previous laptop, after talking with Brian about bringing it to Apple.

On the negative side, Marie's flight here has been delayed to tonight.
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Right now, I primarily intend to show Brian my Upwork situation that I wrote about yesterday. So far, Kristen already has a draft written up, and Zecobo told me he's ready to read the final drafts of the chapters I presented everyone, but even with Jake's explanation of my expectations in place, I still don't see any sign that they will or have done any better than Amanda or Heather.

In case he reads on, though, and also to get this out of my system, I'm seeing fit to elaborate what actually bothers me about Jake's failed role in things. I will admit having been on an emotional high when I stated my refusal to help him with anything for now, but he is very much responsible for that and another one I'm having right now. (And no, I also don't want to hear that I only have myself to blame for this whole year gone by; I do admit partial responsibility for that, but that's exactly another point I seek to dispute with this entry.)

Cutting to the chase, the whole point of having revived Unwilling Service in the first place was to distract myself from my constant failure at the time to find anyone to meaningfully engage with about the Cibus project. Now, US is the main project for until either Yincira comes back to discuss the Cibus project or I feel ready enough to get back into Lucky Star for real. Even though I have successfully commissioned for some giantess ideas for Ultimate Girls, Kanon, and A Little Snow Fairy Sugar, all to discuss more in depth later, the giantess project is something relatively small for the sidelines, and this isn't even just about keeping my plate full; it's about getting the ball rolling so that I can eventually reach the Sinnoh Battle Frontier arc and determine how that whole thing plays out.

So anyway, I revived the project with high hopes that Jake would actually get down to business and no reason to assume that he had so many minor issues with it that weren't worth complaining about individually but numerous enough that whenever he actually did catch a break, he'd work on something personal instead just to distract himself from it all. My muse for it petered out after a chapter for each main, due to his failure to uphold his end of the bargain, and that's why I only managed one more chapter all year long after that. If he decided after maybe a few months, tops, that it wasn't worth continuing with at that point, I wouldn't have been left with such hard feelings as from the length of time it did take him to come clean.

I've already mentioned Dad having asked why I'd wait on him for so long, just shortly before he actually gave up. First of all, I am not inconsiderate enough to fire someone over things that they have no control over. I know things happen to impede people of what they need to do, and when he knows he doesn't want to do something, he's usually forthright about it. Second, for writing consistency. Third, because he has still owed me $34 worth of work in exchange for stuff I had sent him years ago, and he made that $50 in exchange for something other than a Starbound rewrite, given his disdain for Lucky Star. Fourth, because everything he cited going on happened to mirror my own life, full of stuff to distract me from the project, and it became hard to just dismiss it all as excuses. And finally, I needed to save up for both my then-planned follow-up trip to Boston and a still-planned trip to Japan that has since been bumped half a year forward. I could not afford to throw money around on Upwork at the time, at least until Yincira talked me out of the first of those two trips altogether, after I told her that a return to business on her part would negate any reason for me to go up there just to have Brian read Puella Magi Suzune Magica and discuss a Cibus adaptation thereof, which was at the time going to be a holdover for until Jake would finally have something ready for me whenever he would already (or so I thought).

As for why getting much more elaborate writing in has been such a big deal for me, well, here's Jake's summary of what I'm now looking for from others:


I wrote in an 'expansive' fashion. I took the stuff you did, and started by filling out paragraphs because yours seemed thin. Not every single one, but where it fit.

By doing that, I also focused on adding 'character' to the characters. Expose their personalities. Add tics and traits. So on and so forth.

Also I sexed it up 1000%.

In other words, to cover aspects that I have barely any hope of developing to any meaningful extent. (This is to say nothing of how he managed to flesh out May's second chapter somewhat by having someone come along with her just temporarily, which would greatly influence what I did with the next one, as opposed to if only Azelf had been with her.)

(In case the need arises, even though I did talk Brian out of reading the story in general, I could show him May's first chapter under both my writing and his. That one doesn't contain anything squicky that I specified to him in an email; only similar stuff to what I cited from Popotan before. Of course, he did kinda abandon Pokemon long before the release of Ruby and Sapphire, only marginally involved with it for less than a year after beating Stadium in 2000, but I'd be more than happy to tab things up for him for clarification.)
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For not the first time, Mom asked me yesterday what's been getting to me that she can't help but hear me rant and rave to myself. It has everything to do with my Upwork situation, which is what I later brought up with Brian when she put me on the phone with him.

I ended said call promising to fill him in on things when he and Marie come home next weekend, but I suppose I might as well just get shit out right now:

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(*Jimmy's first chapter still has traces of something I explicitly asked Jake not to include, and I've decided to take advantage of his departure from the project to have that rewritten on my terms. And no, barring any further discussion with him, I am not calling him Jamie anymore.)


If Lucky Star: Day of the Beehive ever goes halfway through, with its progress to be hosted online, I might just buy myself an original Playstation and start recording playthroughs of Konami's different games for it to host at the end of each blog entry. (Will still use my second Playstation 2 to play Japanese games, including those published by other companies in the US. Will also record new playthroughs of the Earthbound trilogy (unrelated to either entity), and maybe even Dragon Warrior III first, on emulators, when the game is almost ready for launch.)
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Jake hadn't been able to write any more all week about why he couldn't commit himself any longer to Unwilling Service, but allowed what he specified as "halfway measures" between us to pretty much sum it up yesterday. This whole time, I thought he meant "compromises" by that, even though we only had any explicit conflict about a handful of things, but he went on to specify "respecting eachother's wishes" as what he really meant.

Presumably, his willingness to beta-write the story had been unstable possibly even back then, and only reached the actual tipping point recently. I kept bringing it up with him because he seemed to suggest there was more to it when he said he'd have "part 2" ready when he shared what he had already written more than a week ago. At this point, though, I think we can drop it now; not like I have any reason to ask him to cite everything he came to hate about the story.

As of right now, he's had an exhausting week and does not wish to discuss the story right now or create outlines for either that one or the Makendou project. He did say when I asked, though, that he'd be more willing to still give input after being allowed to unwind for at least a month.


Marie drove me and Mom to the library and various other places yesterday. I did what I had to do, and landed some new DVDs to bring home, including a DVD set of Ultimate Otaku Teacher (technically part 1 of season 1, as was my previous copy) that I can watch on my computer.

My last Universal Yums box arrived by the time we came back home, this month being South Korea. Marie commented on how political it sounds when it didn't simply say "Korea", but I should've noted having learned from Cracked how "national" foods are a political concept to begin with. (Didn't actually have anything, because I had already landed a cookie from Cirillo's Market where Mom dropped me off to pick up cream cheese for some bagels that she would toast for lunch.)

Marie and I later saw that drone that flies around every now and then. I was hanging some wash in the backyard, went to get her to come see, and found her already watching from the driveway.
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Finally decided just to post Unwilling Service to Upwork yesterday afternoon, since John is still taking too long with the current Starcrossed Sisters chapter. Got a total of five applicants before I went to bed.

The reason I haven't done this up until now is pretty much moot. It mainly had to do with my trip to Japan that was going to take place next winter, but that's been postponed yet further, Yincira's talked me out of going to Boston for the main reason I planned, Jake's abandoned the project, and I should still put the money I would've originally spent in Boston towards getting my agenda back in order one way or another. Life is too short just to wait around for people to get back to me.
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Jake came clean after reading yesterday's entry, and said that he just can't work on Unwilling Service anymore. There are just too many creative differences between us.

I knew he hated some things about my plans for the story. Our dispute about Jamie's body overall comes to mind, he once asked me not to include the gen IV Battle Frontier (which I flatly declined), we did have a disagreement over how HMs would be obtained, he's already mentioned how hard it is to be enthused about what is mostly just a rehash of the games, and of course, there's the PokeWalker, which he hates but I found awesome back when I played SoulSilver. However, while he also hates the gen V games, the only line he drew regarding those, should I ever write a second ficseries, was against Snivy as any protagonist's starter of choice. I actually did offer to keep the PokeWalker out of his way in some way or another upon sharing my draft of Jamie's second chapter, which he declined, and I had no idea that he actually hated as much more as 75% of everything involved so far than those few things.

He did say that the overall concept did interest him, and I'm glad he was able to create his own story ideas based on them. I did ask him last night to cite other things he hated about it at some point if he's willing to, in order to see what I'm willing to do away with (for example, the Kimono Girls' HGSS role, if that's another thing). However, if he really did hate so much more stuff involved with the story than I was aware of, then maybe it really is better that he just leave the project.

For exactly the reason I had Jake rewrite everything I wrote, I've asked John if he might be interested in what I only specified as something Pokemon-related, even though he's already slowed to a crawl with Starcrossed Sisters. Will need a few days to actually compile what I need to show him first, including the story outline, the original and final drafts of each online chapter, the current drafts of the chapters I wrote this past year, and the links to certain Pokemon episodes and the unrelated Ultimate Girls on Animeram. (Still need to fix up Jamie and May's opening chapters on FanFiction first.)
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Dug up Kanji in Context, read through the first two lessons, and I can already see Wanikani paying off. It says so much when half the time, I don't even have to look stuff up that I would've had to five years ago.


Asked Yincira if there's any slight chance that she might allow me to bring fanfiction up with her again, in which case I could call off my next visit to Brian's. She suggested that I not go there and drive myself broke anyway if that's the only reason I plan on going there, instead of just to spend quality time with him (which we do enough of anyway), saying that fanfiction should not matter enough to shoot myself in the foot over.

No, it shouldn't, but in my case, it really is that big of a deal at this point. I messaged him on Facebook to ask if he could just download Suzune onto his phone to read on the train, but of course, he is too busy trying to meet the end of a work quarter right now. So, that still has to wait, and in the meantime, I still want a meaningful change from Starbound, but it would really help if Jake had already written anything. Right now, I don't have anything left. I'm still just barely a quarter of the way through Wanikani, which means I'm still gonna have to keep consulting my dictionary when I play Magia Record, which I have no reason to expect much of after my short-lived time with Cutie Riot. All I wanna do is spend time with other characters than anyone from Lucky Star, but the closest I'm gonna get to that is a subpar experience with MR, from which all I really want are more Puellae Magi to set aside for the Cibus project, and it's already gotten to such a point that I've finally taken to Upwork, where I've also asked for Homura's timelines and Kazumi Magica.

As of this morning, I did explain what's at the bottom of all this, regarding the circumstances surrounding Tsubaki, Suzune, and the twins, and how well those would translate into the Cibus project, as well as how much more I expect from Brian after our past discussion about the original story than from some random person online.


As far as Unwilling Service goes, I think the main difference is that I had a lot more going on between chapters five years ago, such as Kanji in Context, the Earthbound marathon, and Starbound, than I do right now. I already had Ellen's first chapter up and Jamie's awaiting a rewrite when I got started with May's during the summer of '12, it got too hot at some point to continue writing that, and it took me a whole year to actually finish my own draft of it to send to Jake, halfway through which he had already sent me Jamie's chapter at its completion. Last year, I finally wrote a new chapter for all three stories in quick succession, Jake hasn't done anything with them this whole time, and while he did admit to having similar blocks way back then as he had just a few weeks ago, I can only wonder if he'll get anything done by next month or the month after.


Mom had some shopping to do at Target, and before dropping me off for a haircut before shopping at MeatFarms first, she asked if I'd like to eat dinner there. I took it up, and when we got there, I got myself a personal pizza at the snack bar, before standing in line for a drink from the Starbucks counter. Five people ahead of me who should've all just ordered their drinks, had them whipped up for them, and been on their way. It took seemingly half an hour, I was already pissed about my fanfic situation, and at some point, Mom came over and asked me if I was "done". Hello. I'm not only waiting in line, but holding a pizza that I've obviously planned for the main course.

Ordered a Smores frappuccino, and while the pizza was good, the frappe barely tasted like anything. Complained to one of the clerks while they attended the drink machine, and she only told me that's how they're made. Threw it out halfway through consumption.

Might give the same thing a second chance somewhere else. Oddly enough, I came across two people's complaints on BuzzFeed about how watery the Midnight Mint Mocha variety is while Smores is so much better, but I actually had an MMM at Tanger Outlets the other day, and it was awesome.


Last night, jessicaelwood finally showed me a draft of what I commissioned her for. I was already in bed by that point, and only woke up briefly six hours later, but she commented on how quick I was to reply. This is what comes with having almost nothing but downtime compared to almost anyone else.
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So, it turns out that when you copy from and paste into the document creation window, it just converts everything into raw code. I had to ask Jake to send me the final drafts of Jamie and May's first chapters; the alternative would be to wait until I finally hit Brian's place again. And it's a good thing it's been years since I last updated anything, given how deeply all three fics have been buried at this point.

Gotta remember to copy such stuff into the editing window if I ever need to again.
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Changed the dates in Unwilling Service to begin on February 27, 1996, the day Pokemon itself began as a franchise. Particularly had Sinnoh's honey trees on mind; bug-hunting is normally a summer activity, and I just can't see it working quite so well in the fall or winter.

(Hint: In order to copy text on FanFiction, just change the URL's "www" to "m". I already had Ellen's first chapter in the doc manager from before, but Jamie and May's are both either on my flash drive or our external hard drive.)
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Managed to write some dialogue to start Ellen's third chapter off on, thanks to certain thoughts that game manual had sparked in me. (The fact that Jake had shown me something I had never even heard of also suggests that he might already be getting back into Pokemon.)


Dad brought Grandma Ella out to say goodbye to me while I was mowing the frontyard, and took her to the airport afterwards.

Mom called while I had the house to myself, and I asked her if she had managed to pinpoint which day we'd be leaving for Virginia.

As it turns out, Dad would like me to stay home to mind the house and cat. From what Mom told me, Grandma Barbara recently had someone work on her kitchen cabinets, and the person she hired botched the paint job, so she would like Dad to come and re-paint it. Originally, Dad wasn't even gonna come with us, but given these circumstances, he cannot stand to leave the house vulnerable with no one looking after it.

It also turns out that Grandma's the only one who will be there (everyone else is out), nor will we be eating out or doing anything else together.

Would've enjoyed a change in pace, but all things considered, there really is not much incentive for me to come. Such an arrangement as this means that I have more time to get as far into Jamie's next chapter as I'll find myself able to, and to switch gears from Unwilling Service, I will probably have another go at Kanji in Context before trying out Magia Record.
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Pokemon: The Role Playing Game

Jake had me read the last few main pages yesterday, and while I'm not gonna say anything about the survival aspect overall or Pokemon tournaments taking place once a year*, it is interesting how that game implements both the tournaments from the anime and Adventures and Victory Road from each of the games. Even though tournaments in the anime tend to start with its variations of the different Elite Fours, would Ash be sent to Victory Road if the writers ever decide just to wrap things up and let him win already?

(*That one map from Tart Magica already sealed the deal, to cite no comparisons to The Oregon Trail (one in-game day for every few seconds, given the nature of that game's setting) and Breath of the Wild. Having set them to quarterly is just the least problematic for the story and my creative capabilities. For the sake of mirroring, it also helps that Platinum, the game that introduced the Gen IV Battle Frontier, is set specifically in the winter.)
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Had a nice busy day running errands yesterday. Went to the Tanger Outlets with Mom and Grandma, and had lunch out while they did some shopping.

At some point, Mom tried to call me, but I didn't hear anything. She asked me if I had my phone on me when she and Grandma eventually met me in front of the food court, we had a look around, and she also tried calling Dad several times at my suggestion, to see if maybe I left it at home.

Eventually, we stopped by at the service office before leaving, and I asked if anyone had turned it in. The person I spoke to denied it, but I happened to spot it upon re-entering the car.

Must've fallen out of my pocket while I had my knees up on the seat in front of me.


Jake had gotten back to me with some ideas for Jamie's upcoming chapter by the time we came home between the Tanger Outlets and my gym routine.

Gonna copy here for reference, so that I don't have to keep pulling up Skype:

Cut for spoilers and sexual content )

While I'm at it, I suppose I should also copy something from the day before, regarding the mains' connections to Ho-oh and Lugia. Since he posted it to Skype already, it's possible that he might deem it redundant to post to the outline now, although I do hope that isn't the case.

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And finally, while Anna is going to don the same outfit as the "Idol" Trainer Class from DPP, here are two that he had chosen when I asked him to come up with some outfits in general. I will admit that that I sorta expected he'd come up with something by scratch, but I can't really hold this against him. In any case, though, Rokuna's main outfit from Starbound, something Yincira came up with before (would've asked her if she were open) also seems like worthy idol material, so I'll try to decide on one more from here.
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From all the way over near the boathouse entrance, Dad noticed me near the fence ranting and raving about how dependable Jake has no longer been, and called me over to ask what was pissing me off. All I said to him was that I've been expecting stuff from Jake, how he has failed to deliver anything for an entire year at this point, and he asked why I give someone like him such power over my mood and allow him to make me feel bad. I told him that it's actually not that simple, but he only said "Nothing ever is," and suggested I rethink the value of my relationship with him.

Walked a few laps up and down Masem Court to think it over, before coming back inside and online to confront Jake on all his excuses, going as far as to ask if the PokeWalker has anything to do with his lack of work so far. He said that while he still doesn't like the PokeWalker or anything else from HGSS, it's actually more that he just hasn't been into Pokemon in general for a while.

In hopes of helping him get back into it, I later asked if he had ever obtained a new 3DS ever since his first one was stolen. While he indeed had a year ago, he does not have the money to buy any new games, and turned down an offer to help fund him, stating that he would prefer to start over with X on his own terms and has no interest in Sun or Moon.

He did tell me last night, though, that he had actually managed better than the previous two days, to ponder what I had brought up in particular with him two days ago. So there's something, but if he even does show me his ideas for Jamie's next chapter, that's probably as much further as I will go with it in the foreseeable future. I did draw a comparison between his failure to write anything and my own failure to derive any inspiration from the player's guides for BW2, X/Y, and ORAS, suggesting he re-read my entries tagged "Pokemon" from May 22 last year onward if it might help, but other than that, whether he actually tries to get back into it or not is all up to him.

In the meantime, I've read another chapter from You Are Not Special, mainly so that I can tell Brian if he asks that I at least made good use of my time instead of playing video games all month long. That actually came up between me and Mom last night, and when she asked, I had to admit that I'm not actually deriving any fulfillment from it. She suggested that, today, I look up some summer classes at Stonybrook and ask Matthew about some psychologist he used to go see.
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Mom, Dad, and Grandma left yesterday for Cousin Adam's high school graduation, and came back after I had already gone to bed.

Pulled up May's main file yesterday, and realized that I had only updated it on my flash drive. Ditto with Ellen's, but Jamie's has been updated on the computer, so I would have continued with him instead. However, coming up is his first meeting with one of the Pokemon Idols, and I would like Jake's help fleshing some details out for that.

He didn't have access to a computer or phone charger when I first brought it up, but even though he did later on, he still has yet to actually think of anything. I, meanwhile, read a chapter out of this book called You Are Not Special and Other Encouragements, updated Starcrossed Sisters for the first time in weeks, and watched the last few episodes of Panyo Panyo Di Gi Charat, just to fill the time. Also texted Brian before going to bed to email me the two files, but he still has yet to, and there are probably other files that I only updated on my flash drive anyway, so I'll probably look through those and list them this morning.

Honestly, I don't fucking believe this. The way things are still panning out, it's possible that I might as well spend some time with Kiratto Kaiketsu, after having just put Getter Love!! down several days ago. Seeing another whole week or so of nothing going anywhere, I've told Jake last night that I will ask right before we leave for Virginia if he's ready to continue some actual ghostwriting.

When is Jake gonna get down to business, and when will Yincira be open for business again, after all the letdowns I got from everyone else I've sought out for the Cibus project? I'm glad Brian had already talked me out altogether of trying to reboot the original Cibus fic, which is exactly why I'm now focused on adapting Suzune. I'm also glad I've got Starcrossed Sisters going for me, but as far as my own work goes, I'm tired of having only Lucky Star to work with. I write so much better when I've got others to help me flesh ideas out, but Brian is my last hope with the Cibus project until Yincira accepts new fanfic discussion once and for all, and Unwilling Service also feels dead with Jake constantly failing to uphold his end of the bargain and leaving me with such boring writing as I'm capable of on my own.

Why can't anything just unfold the way I want it to?
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The weather cooled way down yesterday, allowing me to think properly when I walk down Masem Court, but I still can't put my mind to the Starbound chapter. I know the gist of what's gonna happen, but my mind is just too much further inclined towards Unwilling Service to ponder the details.

Filled Jake in, and he told me that he can't find my complete draft of May's pending chapter. I sent him what I had on my computer, only to discover that it was still an incomplete version; the finished version is presumably on my flash drive, which I accidentally forgot at Brian's, and I couldn't find it in my outbox either, which leads me to believe that I might have shared it instead through AIM, where nothing is backlogged like on Skype. (I suggested he switch to Jamie's chapters once he reaches where the file leaves off, promising to email him the full chapter once I'm back at Brian's and can access it.)

In the meantime, I have placed an order upon Barnes & Noble for all three volumes of Puella Magi Suzune Magica, to have Brian read on the train when I'm up with him. I was told that I'm only to pay when I come up to receive it, but if Brian does end up agreeing to this (ran it past him on Facebook, but still have yet to hear back from him), this might save me a third trip up to Boston.
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Already feeling a lot better at this point, though I've still been taking it easy today. Should be able to start revising the Unwilling Service outline tomorrow.

Also decided just today that, if any of the mains win the shield at the Pal Park, they will each receive a shiny beast egg after going to Ilex Forest to part with Celebi at the shrine. So, there's a step back in the right direction.

As for our plans in a couple of weeks, Brian would like just to stick with Popotan for now. Busy as he's gonna be this week, though, he still promised to get back to me about that email I sent him.
dmxrated: (Yuichi)
I don't understand why Blood gradually stopped replying to me last summer, especially given the number of times he updated his stories since then. Ever since then, I had PM'ed him every couple of months about something or something else, and never heard back from him. Just sent him one last PM the other day, figuring that this might be the time when he's more socially active, given how so last year and two years earlier, but following that, I logged onto my secondary FanFiction account to unsubscribe from his continuation of I Was Kagami Hiiragi, so that I don't receive an email to drive it home that he's still not talking to me and can just forget about it all.

Normally, this would have been the time I started re-hosting The Loss of Innocence, from which point I would alert him in case he'd like to rewrite The Diary, and ask everyone reading if he's been aloof with them too. At this point, though, I've already lost all remaining interest in that, and that has nothing to do with the Cibus project. There were scenes I used to look back on, but not so much anymore. I don't even think about the unrelated Stars Above anymore.

Really, I have barely any inclination to read any fanfiction whatsoever. I thought I just wanted to focus on my own stories for now, but Unwilling Service is still a no-go, and even though I know what I want to happen in the current chapter for Starbound and how to go on about it, it starts to feel pointless when I'm focused on the same characters.

This would be time to switch gears, if only the circumstances would allow. Jake recently told me how hard it is to be enthused about a story focusing mainly on winning badges, and I asked him yesterday about ways to make things more interesting for him. He had also asked me for a trial of results of the Pal Park, and told me that would boost his morale should I write that up already.

Guess that might as well be today's focus instead of Starbound.
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I have just imported this blog from LiveJournal, in light of certain events involving its servers and TOS. Yincira is already preparing to delete her LiveJournal account, with Tumblr already providing an outlet for her fiction rants. (Despite instructions to delete my original blog as per LJ's new guidelines, I am still leaving everything there for traction, especially since this whole import has already been completed save for my still queued comments.)

Right now, I have more important things to do than to comb through everything these past twelve years. I might revise individual entries that either I revisit on my own or someone alerts me is to any extent broken or out of context, though. However, as a general rule, if I said "this site" on any day before April 9, 2017, I am referring to LiveJournal, not this site.

(Also, since this is likely to be the only time I post a sticky-entry, I suppose this is a good time now to start referring to my Pokemon ficseries, formerly Parasitic Trio, by its new title from over a year ago, Unwilling Service.)
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