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Jul. 12th, 2014 06:34 amWent with my parents and Marie on the catboat yesterday afternoon. Each of us had egg-bacon-lettuce-and-cheese sandwiches for dinner (I didn't have eggs in mine), and Mom also brought a few eclairs and pieces of carrot cake as dessert for Marie's birthday.
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From 1:54 A.M. last Tuesday:
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Two days later, it had occurred to me to ask Chelle why, despite what I described in the cut, I happened to be quite fond of something I myself once commissioned for, depicting the all five Inner Sailor Senshi completely nude, embarrassed, and with their hair updone (not in any actual setting, though). In a nutshell, she explained that different parts of the brain do tend to have conflicting interests every now and then, and this would be a case of the fetishistic part of my brain conflicting with the part responsible for empathy and compassion. I asked why the latter is more active when the context involves, in my words, "exact groups, couples, duos, trios, etc., than to individuals, groups with at least one individual not classified with the others, groups minus one or more of its classified individuals, or even half a school's entire population." Her reply to that was as follows (hard and seemingly redundant for me to reword myself):
That might relate to autism and pattern depency : it's easier to form a new scenario for something now, and something you already have a scenario for. If you classify characters as groups to begin with because that's the way any given canon presents it to you, you already have that formed. Any deviation to the combo would be a new scenario to formulate for, but anything bad happening to existing one could be a violation of the expected scenario.
Well, that covers that at least. From the concept of parts of one's brain conflicting w/ each other, several other things have come to mind. One of those was that time when Jake discovered some blatant hypocrisy of mine regarding the first incarnation of Jamie's fic. Another is my inclination to eventually read the ending of Cries Unheard despite having written down reasons not to even read that both two entries ago and in a notebook. (This is something I've now emailed Chelle directly for her opinion for, including some extra stuff worth mentioning such as its presence in I Was Kagami Hiiragi as well).
What I'm really getting at, though, is that even though I had decided several days ago to wait until I come back to Lucky Star before hosting the first sumo chapter, I'm kinda wondering right now if that would only keep it on my mind while I write chapter 1 of Cult. Should I just host the chapter, all my commissioned pics, and a points donation pool just to have it over with? It does help that nothing is actually written in stone, but I did mention my current plans to avoid everything related to LS while apologizing last night in a PM to bloodscorpion4ever for having gotten on his case about stuff the other day. From that, he might find it odd if I decide to host the fic anyway despite my word to him, and I did also mention that, along with my plans to give it a rest to begin with in favor of Mon Colle Knights, the stuff I was getting out of CU was only making everything else about the fandom and franchise even less enjoyable for me at this point.
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From 1:54 A.M. last Tuesday:
( Read more... )
Two days later, it had occurred to me to ask Chelle why, despite what I described in the cut, I happened to be quite fond of something I myself once commissioned for, depicting the all five Inner Sailor Senshi completely nude, embarrassed, and with their hair updone (not in any actual setting, though). In a nutshell, she explained that different parts of the brain do tend to have conflicting interests every now and then, and this would be a case of the fetishistic part of my brain conflicting with the part responsible for empathy and compassion. I asked why the latter is more active when the context involves, in my words, "exact groups, couples, duos, trios, etc., than to individuals, groups with at least one individual not classified with the others, groups minus one or more of its classified individuals, or even half a school's entire population." Her reply to that was as follows (hard and seemingly redundant for me to reword myself):
That might relate to autism and pattern depency : it's easier to form a new scenario for something now, and something you already have a scenario for. If you classify characters as groups to begin with because that's the way any given canon presents it to you, you already have that formed. Any deviation to the combo would be a new scenario to formulate for, but anything bad happening to existing one could be a violation of the expected scenario.
Well, that covers that at least. From the concept of parts of one's brain conflicting w/ each other, several other things have come to mind. One of those was that time when Jake discovered some blatant hypocrisy of mine regarding the first incarnation of Jamie's fic. Another is my inclination to eventually read the ending of Cries Unheard despite having written down reasons not to even read that both two entries ago and in a notebook. (This is something I've now emailed Chelle directly for her opinion for, including some extra stuff worth mentioning such as its presence in I Was Kagami Hiiragi as well).
What I'm really getting at, though, is that even though I had decided several days ago to wait until I come back to Lucky Star before hosting the first sumo chapter, I'm kinda wondering right now if that would only keep it on my mind while I write chapter 1 of Cult. Should I just host the chapter, all my commissioned pics, and a points donation pool just to have it over with? It does help that nothing is actually written in stone, but I did mention my current plans to avoid everything related to LS while apologizing last night in a PM to bloodscorpion4ever for having gotten on his case about stuff the other day. From that, he might find it odd if I decide to host the fic anyway despite my word to him, and I did also mention that, along with my plans to give it a rest to begin with in favor of Mon Colle Knights, the stuff I was getting out of CU was only making everything else about the fandom and franchise even less enjoyable for me at this point.