Still can't shake it...

Starbound naming note: Coming off from yesterday's post, I have just had a convo with Jake several hours ago, and he said that he's fine with his representing character having a purely Portuguese name. I decided to mention on a speaking-of-which basis, that the character whom I've been referring to as "M" (full-name: MROB-6720M; will be met in Germany) is now planned to be called "Robin", due to two other party members (and now three, now that Mondo and Desiré will become official members) having their names also begin with M.

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Just wanted to draw special attention to the above point. That was actually the second half of said convo; the first half was about my continued obsession with that damn fanfic. Just gonna copy-and-paste it, since there's no real point re-writing it from scratch without any new details to cover.

DMXrated01 10:26 pm
Just asked Dad if what I'm going through right now is some kind of mild trauma, and he suggested I have a bowl of cereal and read something until I fall asleep. Just did the former, and I gotta say, that convo I had with you last night also did it for me.
I did manage to do some editing of the first sumo chapter, but for most of the day, I've been rambling to myself about how Kai will inevitably get what's coming to him instead of focusing on my own story. Also lacked any appetite for dinner, and am unable to work up an [censored] right now, what with my mind already full as I try to sleep.

DMXrated01 10:29 pm
Whether or not you've experienced anything like all that yourself, might you say I've been somewhat traumatized?

[Sexual details omitted]

videokillah 10:33 pm
Well, I won't say you're traumatized... but you're definitely obsessed right now.
If you can't think of anything except those stupid stories seriously.

DMXrated01 10:35 pm
Obsessed, obviously enough, yeah.
I think the reason The Loss of Innocence, Broken Dreams, and I Was Kagami Hiiragi weren't as big a deal was because the first two were already complete when I read them, and with the last one, I was more focused on seeing how [Kagami] ends up in the building readers are led to believe she would die in than on the atrocities committed by Ryuji and Yuka.

Following the convo, I did start to feel a bit sleepy, but then another point struck me. Trying to keep it on mind to blog tomorrow morning made it hard to sleep again, but at the same time, I didn't have the energy to get up, and I started crying and repeating stuff like "I can't sleep!" and "Help me!" multiple alternating times. Even when I did manage to get up and turn my computer back on for the nth time, I could still only bring myself to check DeviantArt and my two email accounts (also need to stop checking that story for reviews; left one today under its newly-loaded ninth chapter to get some thoughts off my chest, and it didn't stop me from ranting about it). Had another crying fit, and then went to Mom and Dad's room and asked if there's anything I could take to force myself to sleep chemically. Dad suggested I listening to a calming music CD. I instead tried to deal with it, but later got the idea to run episode 1 of Kanon on YouTube while I lay in bed. That worked somewhat.

And finally, I have taken to sleeping on the couch for tonight, and I think it's working so far.

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The aforementioned point I'd like to bring up, is about my issues with all and only the main four of Lucky Star canon suffering so badly (or at least the worst out of anyone else involved). This is actually something Jake sorta questioned when I alerted him about my list-post, and it applies to all kinds of character-groupings, unless it's the entire point of the characters in question (such as the decidedly-mentally-unstable EVA pilots in Neon Genesis Evangelion).

This nude-pic and this fat-pic of the Beehive Brigade are the main reasons why I decided months ago that, should I ever look into creating a game about them, it will probably be about them as a few of the most oppressed members of a dystopian society that they are appointed to fight against, as opposed to, say, a team of magical soldiers who protect humanity. The kind of blatant humiliation depicted in the latter image, or that episode of The Simpsons where Homer and Marge wind up in a football field completely nude after desperately trying to avoid being seen that way, are not things I'd want happening to Lucky Star's main four, or to Mondo and Rokuna from Mon Colle Knights, or to Shiori and Kaori Misaka from Kanon, or... well, get what I'm saying?

That is, unless either one or more respective person is absent from the situation, or there are others that aren't normally part of the group but going through the same thing, or, like I said above, it's one of the group's entire points in canon.

Regarding the fic, though, I don't think that's gonna be the case. Even though the description said "four ordinary high school girls", it's not likely that those boys, given their personalities, are gonna be any nicer to Yutaka (whom they already have captive) or Minami (who is also clearly a target, given her dog's fate courtesy of Satoshi).

But anyway, is that some kind of autistic quirk, or are there others who also feel the same way?

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Did a lot less ranting today, and caught myself whenever I did. A step in the right direction.

Unfortunately, I have just encountered a setback when BS4E got back to me at around 9 tonight with several things about his story. He said that he's playing by ear as to how long the fic will span for, and as it turns out, it mainly is gonna focus on physical and mental abuse of the main four after all, while other characters are merely going to endure mental abuse and threats. Reading his answer cued me to see what the boys actually did to Minoru in chapter 6, and it turns out it's exactly the latter, mainly as a way to keep him away from Tsukasa.

Although I did reply to his answers with a question regarding his choice of mainly the main four, this really confirms that the only parts of this fic I will be reading is the actual killings of the boys and what becomes of Miyuki, Kagami, and Kai (if I even still have it on mind then). Still inclined to read that, because one cannot unread what they already have read. It was narrated that Miyuki could face the rest of her life in prison, but it's pretty obvious that that's meant at least to keep readers in suspense, so that they stick around to see if she actually will. A lack of sufficient evidence is mentioned in chapter 8, but considering that Yui warns Miyuki about the requirement of credibility, I'm pretty sure the jury will side entirely with her and Kagami once their stories and everyone else's are told and put together. That is, if the judge doesn't call the trial off altogether based on the unlikelihood of a conviction at that point.

Given the problems this story has been giving me, this will probably be the last story I read by bloodscorpion4ever too early on. Especially considering how little fanfiction I've been reading lately, Lucky Star or otherwise. I think I started reading The Loss of Innocence and Broken Dreams (on the same day) mainly out of boredom, and I didn't initially have any interest in I Was Kagami Hiiragi, based on the assumption that Kagami, for whatever reason, deciding to try out some substance or another at a party. (Misao does bring her to a graduation party in the beginning, but that's not where it actually happens; rather, there are further combined circumstances together that led her into drugs.) Any future stories he writes should probably wait until they are definitively complete. In fact, this might even be the last story of his that I read ever, which is not helped by how he completely ignores the fact that schools in Japan do not run on the same schedule as those in America. (Konata mentions rush hour in the school hallways during Bonds, despite the fact that only teachers in Japanese schools move between classrooms each period.) Writing on the fly is one thing, but there really is no excuse for disregarding stuff as was explicitly shown in canon.