Still can't shake it...
Jul. 8th, 2014 01:54 amStarbound naming note: Coming off from yesterday's post, I have just had a convo with Jake several hours ago, and he said that he's fine with his representing character having a purely Portuguese name. I decided to mention on a speaking-of-which basis, that the character whom I've been referring to as "M" (full-name: MROB-6720M; will be met in Germany) is now planned to be called "Robin", due to two other party members (and now three, now that Mondo and Desiré will become official members) having their names also begin with M.
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Just wanted to draw special attention to the above point. That was actually the second half of said convo; the first half was about my continued obsession with that damn fanfic. Just gonna copy-and-paste it, since there's no real point re-writing it from scratch without any new details to cover.
DMXrated01 10:26 pm
Just asked Dad if what I'm going through right now is some kind of mild trauma, and he suggested I have a bowl of cereal and read something until I fall asleep. Just did the former, and I gotta say, that convo I had with you last night also did it for me.
I did manage to do some editing of the first sumo chapter, but for most of the day, I've been rambling to myself about how Kai will inevitably get what's coming to him instead of focusing on my own story. Also lacked any appetite for dinner, and am unable to work up an [censored] right now, what with my mind already full as I try to sleep.
DMXrated01 10:29 pm
Whether or not you've experienced anything like all that yourself, might you say I've been somewhat traumatized?
[Sexual details omitted]
videokillah 10:33 pm
Well, I won't say you're traumatized... but you're definitely obsessed right now.
If you can't think of anything except those stupid stories seriously.
DMXrated01 10:35 pm
Obsessed, obviously enough, yeah.
I think the reason The Loss of Innocence, Broken Dreams, and I Was Kagami Hiiragi weren't as big a deal was because the first two were already complete when I read them, and with the last one, I was more focused on seeing how [Kagami] ends up in the building readers are led to believe she would die in than on the atrocities committed by Ryuji and Yuka.
Following the convo, I did start to feel a bit sleepy, but then another point struck me. Trying to keep it on mind to blog tomorrow morning made it hard to sleep again, but at the same time, I didn't have the energy to get up, and I started crying and repeating stuff like "I can't sleep!" and "Help me!" multiple alternating times. Even when I did manage to get up and turn my computer back on for the nth time, I could still only bring myself to check DeviantArt and my two email accounts (also need to stop checking that story for reviews; left one today under its newly-loaded ninth chapter to get some thoughts off my chest, and it didn't stop me from ranting about it). Had another crying fit, and then went to Mom and Dad's room and asked if there's anything I could take to force myself to sleep chemically. Dad suggested I listening to a calming music CD. I instead tried to deal with it, but later got the idea to run episode 1 of Kanon on YouTube while I lay in bed. That worked somewhat.
And finally, I have taken to sleeping on the couch for tonight, and I think it's working so far.
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The aforementioned point I'd like to bring up, is about my issues with all and only the main four of Lucky Star canon suffering so badly (or at least the worst out of anyone else involved). This is actually something Jake sorta questioned when I alerted him about my list-post, and it applies to all kinds of character-groupings, unless it's the entire point of the characters in question (such as the decidedly-mentally-unstable EVA pilots in Neon Genesis Evangelion).
This nude-pic and this fat-pic of the Beehive Brigade are the main reasons why I decided months ago that, should I ever look into creating a game about them, it will probably be about them as a few of the most oppressed members of a dystopian society that they are appointed to fight against, as opposed to, say, a team of magical soldiers who protect humanity. The kind of blatant humiliation depicted in the latter image, or that episode of The Simpsons where Homer and Marge wind up in a football field completely nude after desperately trying to avoid being seen that way, are not things I'd want happening to Lucky Star's main four, or to Mondo and Rokuna from Mon Colle Knights, or to Shiori and Kaori Misaka from Kanon, or... well, get what I'm saying?
That is, unless either one or more respective person is absent from the situation, or there are others that aren't normally part of the group but going through the same thing, or, like I said above, it's one of the group's entire points in canon.
Regarding the fic, though, I don't think that's gonna be the case. Even though the description said "four ordinary high school girls", it's not likely that those boys, given their personalities, are gonna be any nicer to Yutaka (whom they already have captive) or Minami (who is also clearly a target, given her dog's fate courtesy of Satoshi).
But anyway, is that some kind of autistic quirk, or are there others who also feel the same way?
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Just wanted to draw special attention to the above point. That was actually the second half of said convo; the first half was about my continued obsession with that damn fanfic. Just gonna copy-and-paste it, since there's no real point re-writing it from scratch without any new details to cover.
DMXrated01 10:26 pm
Just asked Dad if what I'm going through right now is some kind of mild trauma, and he suggested I have a bowl of cereal and read something until I fall asleep. Just did the former, and I gotta say, that convo I had with you last night also did it for me.
I did manage to do some editing of the first sumo chapter, but for most of the day, I've been rambling to myself about how Kai will inevitably get what's coming to him instead of focusing on my own story. Also lacked any appetite for dinner, and am unable to work up an [censored] right now, what with my mind already full as I try to sleep.
DMXrated01 10:29 pm
Whether or not you've experienced anything like all that yourself, might you say I've been somewhat traumatized?
[Sexual details omitted]
videokillah 10:33 pm
Well, I won't say you're traumatized... but you're definitely obsessed right now.
If you can't think of anything except those stupid stories seriously.
DMXrated01 10:35 pm
Obsessed, obviously enough, yeah.
I think the reason The Loss of Innocence, Broken Dreams, and I Was Kagami Hiiragi weren't as big a deal was because the first two were already complete when I read them, and with the last one, I was more focused on seeing how [Kagami] ends up in the building readers are led to believe she would die in than on the atrocities committed by Ryuji and Yuka.
Following the convo, I did start to feel a bit sleepy, but then another point struck me. Trying to keep it on mind to blog tomorrow morning made it hard to sleep again, but at the same time, I didn't have the energy to get up, and I started crying and repeating stuff like "I can't sleep!" and "Help me!" multiple alternating times. Even when I did manage to get up and turn my computer back on for the nth time, I could still only bring myself to check DeviantArt and my two email accounts (also need to stop checking that story for reviews; left one today under its newly-loaded ninth chapter to get some thoughts off my chest, and it didn't stop me from ranting about it). Had another crying fit, and then went to Mom and Dad's room and asked if there's anything I could take to force myself to sleep chemically. Dad suggested I listening to a calming music CD. I instead tried to deal with it, but later got the idea to run episode 1 of Kanon on YouTube while I lay in bed. That worked somewhat.
And finally, I have taken to sleeping on the couch for tonight, and I think it's working so far.
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The aforementioned point I'd like to bring up, is about my issues with all and only the main four of Lucky Star canon suffering so badly (or at least the worst out of anyone else involved). This is actually something Jake sorta questioned when I alerted him about my list-post, and it applies to all kinds of character-groupings, unless it's the entire point of the characters in question (such as the decidedly-mentally-unstable EVA pilots in Neon Genesis Evangelion).
This nude-pic and this fat-pic of the Beehive Brigade are the main reasons why I decided months ago that, should I ever look into creating a game about them, it will probably be about them as a few of the most oppressed members of a dystopian society that they are appointed to fight against, as opposed to, say, a team of magical soldiers who protect humanity. The kind of blatant humiliation depicted in the latter image, or that episode of The Simpsons where Homer and Marge wind up in a football field completely nude after desperately trying to avoid being seen that way, are not things I'd want happening to Lucky Star's main four, or to Mondo and Rokuna from Mon Colle Knights, or to Shiori and Kaori Misaka from Kanon, or... well, get what I'm saying?
That is, unless either one or more respective person is absent from the situation, or there are others that aren't normally part of the group but going through the same thing, or, like I said above, it's one of the group's entire points in canon.
Regarding the fic, though, I don't think that's gonna be the case. Even though the description said "four ordinary high school girls", it's not likely that those boys, given their personalities, are gonna be any nicer to Yutaka (whom they already have captive) or Minami (who is also clearly a target, given her dog's fate courtesy of Satoshi).
But anyway, is that some kind of autistic quirk, or are there others who also feel the same way?