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Aug. 16th, 2014 05:42 pmSo, for a whole week after Blood updated his stories and I reported him for hosting supposedly MA-rated content (just unlocked an entry on the 6th), I genuinely was sick of seeing his username or that story's icon in the archive. A week later, I went onto an ff.net forum designed specifically for rants, to rant about my issues with him. I had to visit his userpage to provide a link to it, and I noticed that he hadn't updated either of his stories since that time.
Yeah. I said I reported him, hoping that someone would take that shit down on him. Since no one seems interested, though, I am still interested enough to see how the antagonists' demises actually play out whenever they do. Before long, I found myself returning to the archive and de-filtering M-rated stories multiple times a day, expecting initially that he'd keep Cries Unheard going. Even given how busy he is with real life, these whole two weeks is the longest he's taken to update anything, with the second and previous being eight days (although said eight was the period during which he first hosted this Azumanga Daioh fic titled No Reason, which he would then update simultaneously with CU). It's dragged out so much that I've taken to just following both him and his story, intending to simply discard any notifications I receive before continuing a given message-check normally.
No, I don't intend to actually read most of Cries Unheard or anything that he writes in the future. I only care about the comeuppance chapters, solely for the sake of closure for the several times I spent less than functional for days on end. If the story gets taken down first, though, then that will be relief of a different flavor, allowing me to pretend that I never even read that shit in the first place.
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Even that aside, I'm already tired of Lucky Star at this point, of writing about the same old characters after writing a total of seven and a half chapters for different fanfics over nearly two years. I want to come back to Cult, and even tried for the second time to just start writing the first main chapter already, but I just can't. Without any future material to work towards, it just seems pointless. I had a lot of fun writing the prologue around Thanksgiving of 2010, but that's because I had the events of four whole fics to look forward to, only the first of which remains (and even then, only with a team each of protagonists and antagonists, not any actual events).
Maybe there's also the fact that my whole point of conceiving Cult in the first place was about the Supporting Knights that Mondo and Rokuna have made friends with during the prologue. Most of the ideas Chelle gave me for the first main chapter had been about all kinds of things, but only a few about any specific Supporters. (And yes, she already told me the other day that, for this first chapter, there isn't much one can do with all ten of them.)
Disinclined as I am, Parasitic Trio seems to be the only option I have left. Honestly, I don't care about Pokemon anymore, and the only reason I have left to write it is to do justice to the hundreds, if not thousands, of hours I spent playing the games.
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Chelle told me not too long ago how important it is to learn how to write without inspiration, but really, I beg to differ. That would be true if I was writing something to profit from, and I don't know why she writes fanfiction (other than that she enjoys it, obviously) but the reason I write fanfiction in the first place, is to have stuff that I'd enjoy re-reading, and that's even more important to me than having an actual audience. A single scene is one thing, but if I have to force myself through a whole chapter, then I'm not likely going to enjoy the fruits of my labor, which more or less defeats the purpose of writing it in the first place.
Yeah. I said I reported him, hoping that someone would take that shit down on him. Since no one seems interested, though, I am still interested enough to see how the antagonists' demises actually play out whenever they do. Before long, I found myself returning to the archive and de-filtering M-rated stories multiple times a day, expecting initially that he'd keep Cries Unheard going. Even given how busy he is with real life, these whole two weeks is the longest he's taken to update anything, with the second and previous being eight days (although said eight was the period during which he first hosted this Azumanga Daioh fic titled No Reason, which he would then update simultaneously with CU). It's dragged out so much that I've taken to just following both him and his story, intending to simply discard any notifications I receive before continuing a given message-check normally.
No, I don't intend to actually read most of Cries Unheard or anything that he writes in the future. I only care about the comeuppance chapters, solely for the sake of closure for the several times I spent less than functional for days on end. If the story gets taken down first, though, then that will be relief of a different flavor, allowing me to pretend that I never even read that shit in the first place.
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Even that aside, I'm already tired of Lucky Star at this point, of writing about the same old characters after writing a total of seven and a half chapters for different fanfics over nearly two years. I want to come back to Cult, and even tried for the second time to just start writing the first main chapter already, but I just can't. Without any future material to work towards, it just seems pointless. I had a lot of fun writing the prologue around Thanksgiving of 2010, but that's because I had the events of four whole fics to look forward to, only the first of which remains (and even then, only with a team each of protagonists and antagonists, not any actual events).
Maybe there's also the fact that my whole point of conceiving Cult in the first place was about the Supporting Knights that Mondo and Rokuna have made friends with during the prologue. Most of the ideas Chelle gave me for the first main chapter had been about all kinds of things, but only a few about any specific Supporters. (And yes, she already told me the other day that, for this first chapter, there isn't much one can do with all ten of them.)
Disinclined as I am, Parasitic Trio seems to be the only option I have left. Honestly, I don't care about Pokemon anymore, and the only reason I have left to write it is to do justice to the hundreds, if not thousands, of hours I spent playing the games.
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Chelle told me not too long ago how important it is to learn how to write without inspiration, but really, I beg to differ. That would be true if I was writing something to profit from, and I don't know why she writes fanfiction (other than that she enjoys it, obviously) but the reason I write fanfiction in the first place, is to have stuff that I'd enjoy re-reading, and that's even more important to me than having an actual audience. A single scene is one thing, but if I have to force myself through a whole chapter, then I'm not likely going to enjoy the fruits of my labor, which more or less defeats the purpose of writing it in the first place.