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Nov. 18th, 2015 03:37 pmSent a PM last night to bloodscorpion4ever, apologizing for the way I treated him with Stage One: Thwarted a year ago. Writing this so that I can stop thinking about when or even if he'll get back to me, because he did take half a year after his first account was hacked to continue a discussion I was having with him about the Hunt Club, it's been a year since he last updated Cries Unheard (not calling it Crap Unread anymore), and he's only updated his other fic three times since (first time on January 20, twice in July), and anyone could just disappear from the online community forever (exactly what happened with Adalia Glenys only a year after I first met her, rarely to be heard from again). And even if he does check his emails or PMs anytime soon, I wouldn't be surprised if he'd rather not continue things with me, considering how out of proportion I had blown things with him over the course of a few months.
And no, this is not about the fic itself. That story still fails to add up (both in relation to canon and on its own merits), and I'm already able to deal with what had gone on in that story. (I do suppose, though, that I'd enjoy seeing the antagonists' deaths play out once and for all if Blood ever does get that far, if mainly like ice on a faint but lasting burn.)
The reason I wish to return to terms with him, is because I realize in hindsight how aggressive I was the first time I brought up that timeline issue with him, which is where this whole thing started in the first place. I brought up the same subject with Acsuperman in regard to Luckier Star, much more tactfully, and he was a lot more open to it, even asking what the actual school schedule is in Japan. There was also that exchange with Redler Red7, who told me how people lose respect for him for snapping when they make assumptions; that sounds exactly like myself in response for Blood snapping after the second time I brought the subject up (among other things, all in three consecutive reviews I had left in one night). I just as easily could have made the wrong move with Red there and pushed an actual misunderstanding beyond resolution.
Chances are good that Acs would have likely reacted the same way if I got in his face about it as well, and if that started out as a simple oversight on Blood's part instead of a conscious decision, then I just hope I didn't already turn it into the latter with the way I approached the subject, and that maybe I'll actually have a better influence on him for anything he writes in the future. (If he says right from the start not to bring it up, though, then it probably is a done deal; considering that his real issue was likely the way I approached him, though, it might still be worth it to bring up any differences in past approaches between me and Simply Hiiragi to start with.)
Already have everything I intend to say message-by-message planned out on WordPad, including stuff related to his stories in general. All that's left is to see if he ever does get back to me, and adjust things as necessary.
Added the next day: If I don't hear back from him within a few days after his next update, provided he doesn't block me, I will probably change my username again and just ask him those few aforementioned questions. Chances are good he might still not want anything to do with me, but there is also the possibility instead of him either accepting it silently (as he might have before) or missing it altogether (which had happened just recently with Arkytal about the discontinued Tyrants Always Win).
Also, not sure if having just Followed his account and his two fics today was a good idea, now that I think of it. The reason I changed my username and got rid of my userpic was so that he wouldn't delete any notifications before even opening them; if he leaves upon reading the subject line ("Sorry about before."), then at least then he'd know the gist of what I intend to say, plus those emails still contain links directly to their senders' profiles. Good thing at least Unlucky Black Holes 2 and Cibus Esculentus Madoka Magica weren't there when things went down between me and him, and that I recently changed my userpic (which is still displayed, though he might recognize that too if he re-reads his reviews very often).
Well, at least now I won't have to keep checking his profile, and having Followed him instead of bookmarking his userpage has just made it a little easier for me to move on for the time being.
And no, this is not about the fic itself. That story still fails to add up (both in relation to canon and on its own merits), and I'm already able to deal with what had gone on in that story. (I do suppose, though, that I'd enjoy seeing the antagonists' deaths play out once and for all if Blood ever does get that far, if mainly like ice on a faint but lasting burn.)
The reason I wish to return to terms with him, is because I realize in hindsight how aggressive I was the first time I brought up that timeline issue with him, which is where this whole thing started in the first place. I brought up the same subject with Acsuperman in regard to Luckier Star, much more tactfully, and he was a lot more open to it, even asking what the actual school schedule is in Japan. There was also that exchange with Redler Red7, who told me how people lose respect for him for snapping when they make assumptions; that sounds exactly like myself in response for Blood snapping after the second time I brought the subject up (among other things, all in three consecutive reviews I had left in one night). I just as easily could have made the wrong move with Red there and pushed an actual misunderstanding beyond resolution.
Chances are good that Acs would have likely reacted the same way if I got in his face about it as well, and if that started out as a simple oversight on Blood's part instead of a conscious decision, then I just hope I didn't already turn it into the latter with the way I approached the subject, and that maybe I'll actually have a better influence on him for anything he writes in the future. (If he says right from the start not to bring it up, though, then it probably is a done deal; considering that his real issue was likely the way I approached him, though, it might still be worth it to bring up any differences in past approaches between me and Simply Hiiragi to start with.)
Already have everything I intend to say message-by-message planned out on WordPad, including stuff related to his stories in general. All that's left is to see if he ever does get back to me, and adjust things as necessary.
Added the next day: If I don't hear back from him within a few days after his next update, provided he doesn't block me, I will probably change my username again and just ask him those few aforementioned questions. Chances are good he might still not want anything to do with me, but there is also the possibility instead of him either accepting it silently (as he might have before) or missing it altogether (which had happened just recently with Arkytal about the discontinued Tyrants Always Win).
Also, not sure if having just Followed his account and his two fics today was a good idea, now that I think of it. The reason I changed my username and got rid of my userpic was so that he wouldn't delete any notifications before even opening them; if he leaves upon reading the subject line ("Sorry about before."), then at least then he'd know the gist of what I intend to say, plus those emails still contain links directly to their senders' profiles. Good thing at least Unlucky Black Holes 2 and Cibus Esculentus Madoka Magica weren't there when things went down between me and him, and that I recently changed my userpic (which is still displayed, though he might recognize that too if he re-reads his reviews very often).
Well, at least now I won't have to keep checking his profile, and having Followed him instead of bookmarking his userpage has just made it a little easier for me to move on for the time being.