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dmxratedSorry there was no entry yesterday, but when I tried to post this the first time, the server timed out twice in a row. I meant to come back and post it later in the morning, but had forgotten about it, and decided just to wait until the following morning, for the sake of consistency.
Anyway, just two entries today. The latter of the two involves an afternoon-long argument I had with my parents when they confiscated a Health textbook I borrowed from class that day, after I found a whole bunch of curses in it and tried to play a "game" with Brian and Marie.
February 28, 1999 (Sunday; Lent)
This morning, I was wandering outside thinking about who would sing what in a made-up lip sync. While I was wandering, I came back in and watched the video for Oh Baby, Baby. I went outside and thought about it.
Mom asked me to vacuum the garage for Dad, but I gave her a hard time. She’s like “You get older and stronger, and he gets older and weaker.” Soon, I started packing my games and beanie babies and documents into my backpack. I offered Brian a Crunch bar that I got last Friday, and he thanked me, and I’m like “You’re not welcome.” I took all my stuff down Masem Court, but I couldn’t move very fast. Soon, I came back, and I did the laundry.
Tonight, Brian was playing Tetris Attack.
After dinner tonight, I was finishing a Social Studies test that I didn’t finish last Friday. Mom and Dad told me to read about the Industrial Revolution in my textbook. After I was done, I tried to write an essay about it, and each time I showed Mom, she’s like “You can make more of an effort than that.” Next time, I’m not even gonna bother doing it.
March 1, 1999 (Monday)
During Homeroom, I got a sheet to fill out which school foods I like and don’t like.
I had Chorus 1st Period today.
I needed to take home a Health textbook to do some notesheets tonight.
When I got home, I wandered outside thinking about something. I would have the big coneshaped nose factory, a factory that makes big coneshaped noses from party hats. It would be run by me and all my friends and anyone else I can name, and our only slave, Dennis Marino.
When I got inside, I started my homework, and Marie saw some sheet I got in Homeroom. She filled out “No” for all of them except tacos. Mom came in, and she saw what Marie did, and she told her that was for me to fill out. She asked me about my Science homework, and I told her that Sandy was doing it for me.
“What? Ever since school started, or ever since you broke your wrist?” she asked me. I told her it was since I broke my wrist.
When I started doing my Health homework, I looked in the textbook for curses. There were a lot of page numbers saying where you could find them. I thought it was pretty damn funny. I showed it to Marie, and I was gonna play a game with her where she chooses which page to turn to. Mom stopped me, and I showed Dad what was written in it. I showed him where it says “If you read this, you are an asshole, bitch, dummy, fuck U.”
“You are,” he told me.
I came back inside, and Mom told me to talk to him about showing Brian and Marie curses. I told him, and then we had one hell of a long fucking argument all night. Dad went back outside, and it was just me and Mom. She tried slamming me against the wall, but instead, I slammed her. Soon, I went outside and told Dad I was gonna take down the house. He kept trying to discourage me, but I just kept screaming “NOOOO!!!”
When dinner started, Dad told everyone else “I’m sure we’re gonna have a lively conversation tonight.” Brian told Dad he borrowed Tetris Attack from Mr. Clements. Dad told him he doesn’t want him going on his doorstep to borrow games. I kept bothering him about the textbook, and soon, he’s like “Shut up!” I tried to talk to him a few times, and then he’s like “If you’ve got something to say, all I wanna hear is ‘I’m sorry.’” I apologized to him, and he let me talk. I told him that I’m gonna walk all the way to Mexico to buy explosives.
Later, Mom spoke to Ms. Bandows on the phone. She spoke to her about having her daughter doing my homework for me. Dad told her to let Ms. Bandows know about the textbook. I told her that I wasn’t gonna do my English homework.
“Do you think Ms. Alfieri will let you go to chorus again if you don’t do your homework?” she asked me. So I decided to do it.
Soon, Win Ben Stein’s Money came on, and we watched a little bit of it, and everything calmed down for a few minutes, and then we started arguing again for the rest of the night until we all went to bed. Eventually, Mom did give me the textbook, but she blackened all the curses. I told her I could still see what was crossed out. She asked me to apologize to Dad. I did. I then went to bed and wrote down everything that was written in it
Usually, when I go to bed, I play with Duckbutt and make baby noises. Tonight, I chucked him to the other end of the bed.
Back then, by "baby noises", I meant putting on a squeaky voice and talking to my stuffed animals as if I were talking to a baby. It annoyed the hell out of Brian. This started the previous January, when Mom spotted the duck on the floor (which I would name Duckbutt shortly afterwards) and said "What's that duck doing on the floor?"
Already played: Donkey Kong Country. That game took roughly just two hours to complete (in just one sitting), which is three hours less than it took to complete Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past. Of course, this was a typical action game, not a dungeon crawler, and I didn't go out of my way to find every secret area in the game.
Back to the present.
I came to the hospital with Mom two days ago. We were supposed to meet with Dr. Perret somewhere around noon. We postponed it for somewhere around 4 or 6 in the afternoon, but I was so tired from working that I asked to have it postponed for another day altogether. All I can think of bringing up are some thoughts I had more than a week ago about buying a gun, killing Dad, and then killing myself. Mom and I already discussed this, and I hadn't even thought of it since then, so that basically means it was resolved.
Yesterday, Vincent brought me out to lunch, and I noticed that I still had the $25 I had taken out for lunch the previous day. That means I had accidentally forgotten to pay for lunch at the hospital (either that or they actually do accept debit). I later spoke to Mom about it, and she said not to make a big deal over it.
Last night, Brian's friends came over again, and the three of them sat at the table doing stuff on their laptops. Not much to say about that.
Anyway, just two entries today. The latter of the two involves an afternoon-long argument I had with my parents when they confiscated a Health textbook I borrowed from class that day, after I found a whole bunch of curses in it and tried to play a "game" with Brian and Marie.
February 28, 1999 (Sunday; Lent)
This morning, I was wandering outside thinking about who would sing what in a made-up lip sync. While I was wandering, I came back in and watched the video for Oh Baby, Baby. I went outside and thought about it.
Mom asked me to vacuum the garage for Dad, but I gave her a hard time. She’s like “You get older and stronger, and he gets older and weaker.” Soon, I started packing my games and beanie babies and documents into my backpack. I offered Brian a Crunch bar that I got last Friday, and he thanked me, and I’m like “You’re not welcome.” I took all my stuff down Masem Court, but I couldn’t move very fast. Soon, I came back, and I did the laundry.
Tonight, Brian was playing Tetris Attack.
After dinner tonight, I was finishing a Social Studies test that I didn’t finish last Friday. Mom and Dad told me to read about the Industrial Revolution in my textbook. After I was done, I tried to write an essay about it, and each time I showed Mom, she’s like “You can make more of an effort than that.” Next time, I’m not even gonna bother doing it.
March 1, 1999 (Monday)
During Homeroom, I got a sheet to fill out which school foods I like and don’t like.
I had Chorus 1st Period today.
I needed to take home a Health textbook to do some notesheets tonight.
When I got home, I wandered outside thinking about something. I would have the big coneshaped nose factory, a factory that makes big coneshaped noses from party hats. It would be run by me and all my friends and anyone else I can name, and our only slave, Dennis Marino.
When I got inside, I started my homework, and Marie saw some sheet I got in Homeroom. She filled out “No” for all of them except tacos. Mom came in, and she saw what Marie did, and she told her that was for me to fill out. She asked me about my Science homework, and I told her that Sandy was doing it for me.
“What? Ever since school started, or ever since you broke your wrist?” she asked me. I told her it was since I broke my wrist.
When I started doing my Health homework, I looked in the textbook for curses. There were a lot of page numbers saying where you could find them. I thought it was pretty damn funny. I showed it to Marie, and I was gonna play a game with her where she chooses which page to turn to. Mom stopped me, and I showed Dad what was written in it. I showed him where it says “If you read this, you are an asshole, bitch, dummy, fuck U.”
“You are,” he told me.
I came back inside, and Mom told me to talk to him about showing Brian and Marie curses. I told him, and then we had one hell of a long fucking argument all night. Dad went back outside, and it was just me and Mom. She tried slamming me against the wall, but instead, I slammed her. Soon, I went outside and told Dad I was gonna take down the house. He kept trying to discourage me, but I just kept screaming “NOOOO!!!”
When dinner started, Dad told everyone else “I’m sure we’re gonna have a lively conversation tonight.” Brian told Dad he borrowed Tetris Attack from Mr. Clements. Dad told him he doesn’t want him going on his doorstep to borrow games. I kept bothering him about the textbook, and soon, he’s like “Shut up!” I tried to talk to him a few times, and then he’s like “If you’ve got something to say, all I wanna hear is ‘I’m sorry.’” I apologized to him, and he let me talk. I told him that I’m gonna walk all the way to Mexico to buy explosives.
Later, Mom spoke to Ms. Bandows on the phone. She spoke to her about having her daughter doing my homework for me. Dad told her to let Ms. Bandows know about the textbook. I told her that I wasn’t gonna do my English homework.
“Do you think Ms. Alfieri will let you go to chorus again if you don’t do your homework?” she asked me. So I decided to do it.
Soon, Win Ben Stein’s Money came on, and we watched a little bit of it, and everything calmed down for a few minutes, and then we started arguing again for the rest of the night until we all went to bed. Eventually, Mom did give me the textbook, but she blackened all the curses. I told her I could still see what was crossed out. She asked me to apologize to Dad. I did. I then went to bed and wrote down everything that was written in it
Usually, when I go to bed, I play with Duckbutt and make baby noises. Tonight, I chucked him to the other end of the bed.
Back then, by "baby noises", I meant putting on a squeaky voice and talking to my stuffed animals as if I were talking to a baby. It annoyed the hell out of Brian. This started the previous January, when Mom spotted the duck on the floor (which I would name Duckbutt shortly afterwards) and said "What's that duck doing on the floor?"
Already played: Donkey Kong Country. That game took roughly just two hours to complete (in just one sitting), which is three hours less than it took to complete Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past. Of course, this was a typical action game, not a dungeon crawler, and I didn't go out of my way to find every secret area in the game.
Back to the present.
I came to the hospital with Mom two days ago. We were supposed to meet with Dr. Perret somewhere around noon. We postponed it for somewhere around 4 or 6 in the afternoon, but I was so tired from working that I asked to have it postponed for another day altogether. All I can think of bringing up are some thoughts I had more than a week ago about buying a gun, killing Dad, and then killing myself. Mom and I already discussed this, and I hadn't even thought of it since then, so that basically means it was resolved.
Yesterday, Vincent brought me out to lunch, and I noticed that I still had the $25 I had taken out for lunch the previous day. That means I had accidentally forgotten to pay for lunch at the hospital (either that or they actually do accept debit). I later spoke to Mom about it, and she said not to make a big deal over it.
Last night, Brian's friends came over again, and the three of them sat at the table doing stuff on their laptops. Not much to say about that.