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Oct. 30th, 2017 07:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dmxratedNo spoons left to play Mother since yesterday.
Even with a whole year through which to save up ahead of me, I can't get Unwilling Service off my mind. I honestly thought I'd distract myself with Starbound, which is also gonna take a good long while, and I actually was raring to play Mother after coming home from Boston; all I needed was some story ideas from Brian for Starbound to assure me that we'll eventually get through that.
It's funny, since I remember being unable to think about it when we were in Pennsylvania months ago, having nothing to replay in my mind that I hadn't a million times already.
Had a great long talk with Mom about my current situation during today's workout. She and Chelle both say I need to be my own catalyst and learn to write without a muse if I actually want to complete something, but even completion itself would feel pointless if I simply went through the motions all the way through.
I'll bet that's exactly how Jake felt when I continually asked him when I can reasonably expect some progress. Originally, I took much longer myself to write anything than I did upon reviving the project over a year ago, so yeah, I'll bet Jake would still have a hard time keeping up even if he had so much less going on and a more favorable opinion towards what he had already continued to agree to despite the presence of certain things he hates.
And no, my reasons for neglecting the fic didn't all have to do with him or any of his. They actually varied from time to time, but today, I've gotten back to Jason despite certain long-term plans, because I just can't deal with this anymore. Almost done with the woodpile, so I should just take some time to finish that off just to get it off my mind. He should get back to me by then, hopefully.
Even with a whole year through which to save up ahead of me, I can't get Unwilling Service off my mind. I honestly thought I'd distract myself with Starbound, which is also gonna take a good long while, and I actually was raring to play Mother after coming home from Boston; all I needed was some story ideas from Brian for Starbound to assure me that we'll eventually get through that.
It's funny, since I remember being unable to think about it when we were in Pennsylvania months ago, having nothing to replay in my mind that I hadn't a million times already.
Had a great long talk with Mom about my current situation during today's workout. She and Chelle both say I need to be my own catalyst and learn to write without a muse if I actually want to complete something, but even completion itself would feel pointless if I simply went through the motions all the way through.
I'll bet that's exactly how Jake felt when I continually asked him when I can reasonably expect some progress. Originally, I took much longer myself to write anything than I did upon reviving the project over a year ago, so yeah, I'll bet Jake would still have a hard time keeping up even if he had so much less going on and a more favorable opinion towards what he had already continued to agree to despite the presence of certain things he hates.
And no, my reasons for neglecting the fic didn't all have to do with him or any of his. They actually varied from time to time, but today, I've gotten back to Jason despite certain long-term plans, because I just can't deal with this anymore. Almost done with the woodpile, so I should just take some time to finish that off just to get it off my mind. He should get back to me by then, hopefully.