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dmxratedWednesday and Thursday:
Mom had to replace the router, and we were briefly out of an Internet connection.
My own connection went out that evening, even though Dad's was still up and running. Still the case when I powered my computer on, until I accepted an update from Microsoft. Mom was going to ask someone at work for help, but I was able to email her that it was running again after a round in Disgaea's Item World.
Friday:
Got up in the middle of the night, to find the Internet down again, even on Dad's computer. Told Mom later when she woke up, but we presumed that it might've been area-wide that time, and it was up again shortly thereafter.
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Heard from someone on PeoplePerHour already familiar with Sonic Adventure 2. His offer to mod that game is a clear indication that he took the time to read my modding list that I had linked to, because I didn't list it in the job post, but at the same time, that also required me to ask him to select a different game. (So far, either he hasn't checked back, or he might've moved on after reading my reply in the resulting email, but this does raise my confidence in finding people besides Orbay.)
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Went to the gym with Mom for the first time in more than a week. Before driving home, Mom noticed someone looking for his hearing aid, decided to help him, and soon asked me to look around as well. It turned out to have been caught on his mask (I guess there's one good thing about COVID), but she did tell me how much even Grandpa told her his own costs.
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I'm mentioning this to make even more sure than already that I never slip up again, after everything I've done to act like a better friend to her than I had been until two years ago. Sometimes, a final warning is exactly what one needs in order just to grow up.
Chelle had threatened to cut me out of her life once and for all if I ever force her again to think about anything she finds aversive. Hearing that left me in such shock that I ended up skipping dinner, and had since lost my inclination to keep playing my game.
I've managed to smooth things over with her so far, but here's the takeaway from all that:
-People are free to make exceptions to things they say they don't like. What I did was a form of black-and-white thinking for what only applies for the most part, as opposed to something to actively live up to, and even Mom agreed during one of several times I brought it up with her, that no one likes being put on the spot over what's merely a guideline for what not to bring up with them.
-Do ask about anything you see someone draw, favorite, reblog, or accept into any communities they run, but only if you have an actual reason to, and if they're comfortable discussing the topic even from that angle. Other than that, whatever they do deal with in any way is not a loophole to bombard them with similar stuff, so much as a matter of personal security and control.
-Regarding my friendship with her, there were things she seemed okay with discussing before, but in context, that was all an illusion (and not because she's two-faced). It would be selfish of me to keep looking back so fondly on some of them as I did before. I need to accept that most of my contributions to her life were negative. To act like a better friend than before, especially to someone who claims not to have any real friends in life otherwise, is the least I can do today.
-Don't get me wrong: I will not take responsibility for someone else's original failure to put their foot down, but I will accept such for anything they had pointed out I myself actually had done.
This morning:
Woke up at around 2, and checked stuff online. Someone made an insulting proposal on PeoplePerHour, calling several things "stupid", titling the job "Massive list of tripe", and bidding $666. I took a moment to look at some other things, and then declined him immediately, after having had enough similar before from Jake, whose own first impression on me back in '05 was actually not too bad.
Mom had to replace the router, and we were briefly out of an Internet connection.
My own connection went out that evening, even though Dad's was still up and running. Still the case when I powered my computer on, until I accepted an update from Microsoft. Mom was going to ask someone at work for help, but I was able to email her that it was running again after a round in Disgaea's Item World.
Friday:
Got up in the middle of the night, to find the Internet down again, even on Dad's computer. Told Mom later when she woke up, but we presumed that it might've been area-wide that time, and it was up again shortly thereafter.
-----
Heard from someone on PeoplePerHour already familiar with Sonic Adventure 2. His offer to mod that game is a clear indication that he took the time to read my modding list that I had linked to, because I didn't list it in the job post, but at the same time, that also required me to ask him to select a different game. (So far, either he hasn't checked back, or he might've moved on after reading my reply in the resulting email, but this does raise my confidence in finding people besides Orbay.)
-----
Went to the gym with Mom for the first time in more than a week. Before driving home, Mom noticed someone looking for his hearing aid, decided to help him, and soon asked me to look around as well. It turned out to have been caught on his mask (I guess there's one good thing about COVID), but she did tell me how much even Grandpa told her his own costs.
-----
I'm mentioning this to make even more sure than already that I never slip up again, after everything I've done to act like a better friend to her than I had been until two years ago. Sometimes, a final warning is exactly what one needs in order just to grow up.
Chelle had threatened to cut me out of her life once and for all if I ever force her again to think about anything she finds aversive. Hearing that left me in such shock that I ended up skipping dinner, and had since lost my inclination to keep playing my game.
I've managed to smooth things over with her so far, but here's the takeaway from all that:
-People are free to make exceptions to things they say they don't like. What I did was a form of black-and-white thinking for what only applies for the most part, as opposed to something to actively live up to, and even Mom agreed during one of several times I brought it up with her, that no one likes being put on the spot over what's merely a guideline for what not to bring up with them.
-Do ask about anything you see someone draw, favorite, reblog, or accept into any communities they run, but only if you have an actual reason to, and if they're comfortable discussing the topic even from that angle. Other than that, whatever they do deal with in any way is not a loophole to bombard them with similar stuff, so much as a matter of personal security and control.
-Regarding my friendship with her, there were things she seemed okay with discussing before, but in context, that was all an illusion (and not because she's two-faced). It would be selfish of me to keep looking back so fondly on some of them as I did before. I need to accept that most of my contributions to her life were negative. To act like a better friend than before, especially to someone who claims not to have any real friends in life otherwise, is the least I can do today.
-Don't get me wrong: I will not take responsibility for someone else's original failure to put their foot down, but I will accept such for anything they had pointed out I myself actually had done.
This morning:
Woke up at around 2, and checked stuff online. Someone made an insulting proposal on PeoplePerHour, calling several things "stupid", titling the job "Massive list of tripe", and bidding $666. I took a moment to look at some other things, and then declined him immediately, after having had enough similar before from Jake, whose own first impression on me back in '05 was actually not too bad.
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Date: 2021-11-23 01:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-11-23 10:20 am (UTC)(By the way, I have replied to previous comments of yours, but in case I ever missed any, I might suggest you create an account and use that to comment through. I don't get emails notifying me of anonymous comments, and I'm pretty sure you'd appreciate getting emails too for when I reply to you.)