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Apr. 28th, 2022 06:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dmxratedRealized yesterday that I caught myself the day prior in a similar mistake to last November. Marking it down to remember and draw experience from.
Basically, someone on Reddit asked if anyone ever had their boundaries stretched, tolerated it at first, but eventually found themselves not to like the other person anymore.
https://www.reddit.com/r/emotionalabuse/comments/uchps0/have_your_boundaries_stretched/
So far, I've been the only person to answer, and described my old relationship with Jake and his chronic anger to be just like that. Like, I believe that people have a right to be angry with me, and even said some stuff about my own behavior with Chelle, but there are also people who really just want to erode your self-esteem in order to establish power over you ever so subtly. My boundaries in this case would be how one talks to me, but since I would do well to make allowances whenever it's very much justified, I would need to take a step back from now on and evaluate the other person's response.
What I stopped short of was a more in-depth analysis of how I myself used to treat Chelle (and did once more last November), at least part of which stems from a bit of sexiness from Mondo & Rokuna's BIG Date that felt nice to perceive she "could" tolerate. One other thing I did to alienate her in the past was analyzing her online, not just the act itself, but how quick I was to forget at least four times, and even without specifying her in either post, there did not seem to be any way around that as I wrote that part before discarding it halfway through.
If only I had caught myself similarly that last time.
(Finding a better way to answer something she asked me might've also helped. Even with actual reasons to misunderstand what she meant back in 2017 by "teens dressed that way" (to cite any of those would be analytical), such scrutiny itself was the other half of that previous transgression, and the excessive length of what I wrote was another thing she asked me to stop in-between.)
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Came up with a new idea, something of Mai and Hikari Tsurugino (aged up but still thin) that I will probably host on Pixiv and/or Danbooru (deviantArt will not allow it), and asked Angeles for that instead of the HLM four.
As for that story listing, I have managed to create one of my applicants a milestone for $12 for a story outline, and since I created the posting just to get something off my back, that should suffice for the time being. One other person charged $300 for the length I requested for his own version of the story itself, and I declined him. Never heard back from the other two so far.
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Walked down to and around the cemetery in Yaphank from the post office there after mailing my game out. During our first lap, we saw some gravestones with the last names Masem (for Masem Court), Liere (for Liere Farm down the street), and Sheridan (from which our neighbor Richie Sheridan descends from).
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My parents have evidently left for Virginia. Didn't see our car in the driveway when I woke up.
Basically, someone on Reddit asked if anyone ever had their boundaries stretched, tolerated it at first, but eventually found themselves not to like the other person anymore.
https://www.reddit.com/r/emotionalabuse/comments/uchps0/have_your_boundaries_stretched/
So far, I've been the only person to answer, and described my old relationship with Jake and his chronic anger to be just like that. Like, I believe that people have a right to be angry with me, and even said some stuff about my own behavior with Chelle, but there are also people who really just want to erode your self-esteem in order to establish power over you ever so subtly. My boundaries in this case would be how one talks to me, but since I would do well to make allowances whenever it's very much justified, I would need to take a step back from now on and evaluate the other person's response.
What I stopped short of was a more in-depth analysis of how I myself used to treat Chelle (and did once more last November), at least part of which stems from a bit of sexiness from Mondo & Rokuna's BIG Date that felt nice to perceive she "could" tolerate. One other thing I did to alienate her in the past was analyzing her online, not just the act itself, but how quick I was to forget at least four times, and even without specifying her in either post, there did not seem to be any way around that as I wrote that part before discarding it halfway through.
If only I had caught myself similarly that last time.
(Finding a better way to answer something she asked me might've also helped. Even with actual reasons to misunderstand what she meant back in 2017 by "teens dressed that way" (to cite any of those would be analytical), such scrutiny itself was the other half of that previous transgression, and the excessive length of what I wrote was another thing she asked me to stop in-between.)
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Came up with a new idea, something of Mai and Hikari Tsurugino (aged up but still thin) that I will probably host on Pixiv and/or Danbooru (deviantArt will not allow it), and asked Angeles for that instead of the HLM four.
As for that story listing, I have managed to create one of my applicants a milestone for $12 for a story outline, and since I created the posting just to get something off my back, that should suffice for the time being. One other person charged $300 for the length I requested for his own version of the story itself, and I declined him. Never heard back from the other two so far.
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Walked down to and around the cemetery in Yaphank from the post office there after mailing my game out. During our first lap, we saw some gravestones with the last names Masem (for Masem Court), Liere (for Liere Farm down the street), and Sheridan (from which our neighbor Richie Sheridan descends from).
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My parents have evidently left for Virginia. Didn't see our car in the driveway when I woke up.